Ready to be done

Since my last post over a week ago, it has been a time of hustling to get things done for the holidays, hustling to get things done at work (we moved 93 people over the last weekend--my team is responsible for making the technology work for all those people at the new cubicle or office to which they were moved), and basically finding my well running dry.

I'm a person who needs quiet time, alone time, time to allow my insides to settle into whatever new shape they are going to settle into, if given the opportunity.

When I don't get that time, my head becomes a jumble of conflicting intent and goals, and I end up getting less done than I normally do. I'm also not a happy camper, and that's really the crux of the matter.

It is the nature of the work I do that I serve others. The company I work for, just as many other large companies are doing, staffs teams like mine with the absolute minimum number of people who can get the job done, barely acceptably. Because I am fortunate to have three passionate, competent members of my team who all go above and beyond every day, we exceed all expectations of our customers, the employees in this building.

There is a price, though. Sometimes, I simply don't want to serve one more person even the slightest way by the time I get home, and there are still people to be served: my wife and my children.

So, when I have had a week like this past week, I get grumpy. I don't want to be around people. I want to be by myself, let the stress work its way out of my bones, and refresh my perspective and grow a new attitude.

Today offers a good chance, as my entire department is having a three-hour party beginning at 1 pm. I have decided to stay here at the office and do whatever the heck I please with that three hours of time. As one of my guys said, "you better close your door!" I will probably take his advice!

The irony of the fact that I only discovered the "Blogging Without Obligation" idea and badge (see the BWO badge in the right column) posted by tiffini electra x on her own blog a few weeks ago is not lost on me! Notice no apologies are included here for having missed Sacred Life Sunday and writing no blog entries at all for the last eight days, and contributing very few comments on my friends' blogs? That's because I have nothing to regret or apologize for. I blog without obligation, and do so as an outlet when inspiration strikes.

That being said, I love to write, I love to read what other people write, and I love to respond when I am feeling the urge to respond. And, I really love it when someone else reads what I wrote, and leaves their own comment for me.

So, while I am all curmudgeonly this afternoon as my team parties at the restuarant where the company is providing lunch, don't feel badly for me! I'll be doing exactly what I want to be doing. Mostly, it will result in me being less of a curmudgeon tomorrow, and that's a desirable result. We have the extended family party to attend on Saturday, and I want to be as relaxed as I can be by then. Those events tend to have at least one minor explosion per year, and I don't intend to be involved!

I'm sure I will be back soon, and we'll see what inspiration has brought to mind then.

Who knows? By next week, this could be me!

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